Wednesday, April 01, 2009
Where are all of you??? || 6:32 AM
HEy....
amacam korang semua??? dah lame tak nampak....
last saturday, i got info they all go sentosa...i didn't follow.
Sori! aku malas ah...
aniway...aku, bram dgn nafeez selalu main bola dgn senior css students....
fun ah...! sumtimes haqim, halis and ruslan turon...
other than that...aku cume lepak dgn nafeez,bramshah,iskandar and azman...
diorang nye lepak, last minute nye! so sumtimes diorang ajak aku lepak, aku tak nak bcoz lastt minute...
next time kalau kporang nak leapk, bilang aku siang2...
okay?
hahax..until next time
TongkaiBlue.
bound and broken;
xxx
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
|| 4:12 AM
elo...!
sori nvr post for a long time...been busy, got a lot of outing! =)
hahax...
lets c...todays is 2nd of july, 5 more days to ite students to go to sch again! *sigh* wish the holidays can be longer..seem like very short! no time to rest...=_( but the best part about tis holidays for me...I GOT TO PLAY SOCCER AGAIN!!! finally...since starting of ite, which was in january, i didn't play soccer..so sad!!! but thankz to the monyet and nafeez, tey called me to play soccer with them..hahax!!! BAIK AH!!! than i met their fren..his name is bob!!! hahax...very funny guy, u have to meet him...everytime he say sunthing..confirm u wana laugh!!! wakakakaka! =P
hopefully iget to play soccer with them agian...
tats all..
until next time...to all tongkai's out there, take care!!!
signing off...
saiful
TongkaiBlue.
bound and broken;
xxx
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
Outing! || 8:49 PM
ANNOUNCEMENT!We are going out this thursday night baybeh (5th of June,malam jumaat, pada waktu matahari sudah terbit). So get yourselves all ready cause we're gonna ton. It's been a while since we ton to-gather-gather sooo this thursday, make yourselves all free ayt. Sorry if we can't contact all of u but if u're reading this, pls contact us for details k. Maybe me or bram or nafeez.
ps: This could be good material for this re-living blog too u know.
Cheers!
&Is//
TongkaiBlue.
bound and broken;
xxx
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Happy Birthday Mama! || 11:03 AM
hahaha...today is a specail day for me! u know y...bcoz, ITS MY MUM BIRTHDAY! yupz..my mother! its her birthday! she turned 46 today! hahax..! even at her age, i still think she cutez! hahax..! have any of u seen my mum?! she so cutez and short..(in a good way)...wakakakaka!
aniway..tis special special special post goes to u mama(i called her tat)..
Happy birthday mama! u turned 46 today..hahax! mama dah tua...but mama is still as cutez as ever! thankz 4 taking care of me 4 the last 17 years..! i know i can b sumtimes naughty, playful and manje! but still u love me! thankz u..! as a single mother...u have taken care of me and my 3 others bro! we reali appreciate it! we know taking care of 4 kids single handedly is not easy but u still try ur best! and mama..i am not wat i am now if it was not 4 u! again i thanked u 4 tis! u r like a mother and a father to me..u have given me the love which a mother shud give! u also have given me the love which a father shud give! eventhough u, as a mother, sumtimes pampered me a lot...u also teach me the discipline which a father shud teach! hahax...! as a son, i officialy declare u as the PERFECT WOMAN in my eyes..! nobody can be like u, mama! u r one of a kind! u worked so hard to bring us up! not a single time, u came back home from work...so tired and all but still have the energy to spend the time wit me and my bro's! hahax..!
i can't believe i'm typing tis while i'm crying...=_(
without u...our family wud not have been tis close! mama is the reason y..me n my bro's are so close! without mama, i think me and my bro's will be in war rite now(guys, wat to do)...! everytime i go home...it may seem lonely! my 3rd bro watching tv..my 2nd bro playing game and my first bro is not at home...! wen the moment u step into the house...the mood changed! abang ain(first bro) wud sudd come home, abg mimi(2nd bro) wud stop playing game,abg megat(3rd bro) wud stop watching tv and me(youngest)....would all go to the living room...n talk to each other happily..talking about our day...talking about stuff...making jokes...laughing, screaming and argueing(all in the positive side)...we would do tis every single day without fail! and u know y, its bcoz of u mama! like i say, without u...i will not be in this perfect family! hahax..! =)
i can still remember the day...wen i saiful izwan...had bee through stupid stuff! example...the heart broken experience from fatin liyana..the break up between amirah and raifana...and now the back stabbed of haritsah...! everytime..i go home feeling down, mama is always there 4 me! mama will always know wat is wrong wit me! without fail..she will know how i feel every single day...wakakakaka!!! weird! and wen i'm feeling down or wat..mama will always know how to make me smile again! hahax...=D
when we were still living with my father, thats was the worst time my family could experience, everytime...to c my mother cried bcoz of my father stupidity! it made me sad! and knowing i was still young (8 - 9 years old)...i couldn't do anithing..! but u endure the suffering juz bcoz u wanted me and my bro's to have a father! well guess wat mama...i'm glad u divorced him..u know y...its bcoz of him u had to suffered too much! we no nid him in our life...me and my bro's juz nid u! we nid u mama! and we LOVE U SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!! happy birthday mama...! i'm gona make tis day special 4 u...wakakakakaka!
oh yar...juz to add to tis post!
rabak siak my bro...metang2 diorang dah kerje..tey buying expensive thing 4 mama! my 1st bro is buying tis very ex ralph lauren perfume which cost $100+..my second bro is buying her a brand new mp4 and my 3rd bro is buying her a handphone! i know u all work alr ah..but i still schooling seh..aiyoyo!!! dun know wat to buy...wakakakaka!
kk..tats all!
take care everbody!
signing off saiful izwan (a.k.a stranger)
TongkaiBlue.
bound and broken;
xxx
Friday, May 30, 2008
Happy Birthday! || 10:56 PM
Eh Kawan2...! korang tahu tak hari nie aper..? hari nie syahirah nye birthday!!! kenal tak saper??? dier kawan baik halistar!!! syahirah tu, yang ikut korang gi tgk halistar punye kick-boxing match..harap2 korang semua ingat! hahax..aniway..! special wishes from tongkai to u syahirah...
Happy birthday to u...
Happy birthday to u...
Happy birthday to syahirah...
Happy birthday to u...
Wuhoo..! syahirah..u turned 17 today! best of luck tis year! may all ur wish come true!!!!
tats all...
signing off..
stranger...
TongkaiBlue.
bound and broken;
xxx
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Broken Heart || 2:57 AM
Hey Tongkai..! amacam..baik tak korang?
hahax...korang nak tahu tak, aper jadi dgn aku? sedih siak hati...! matair aku break dgn aku...tahu kenape tak?! she find it not the right time for us to b together. she said tat she scared tat i change in the future..as majority of guyz will change after finishing NS. she scared tis will happen to me so, she broke up wit me...! *haiz*...but she still tell me tat she love me! still said tat she wana b wit me in the future...! but she dun seem its the time yet...*heart pain*
so as a guy ah..! after asking her y she feels tis way, i decide to give her want she want..! but i love her so much tat i fought 4 us to remain together..! she was touched by tis..so she didn't want to break! but, siak ah, the next day...dier kasih aku one bloody attitude..macam angap me as her fren...k ah, lagi terok than fren..she treat me like shit..like i go out wit another girl and bastard her! but i didn't..those who know me...confirm know how much devoted i can be towards a girl...
so ya..tats was 2 weeks ago, on monday. i went to c her after sch n wanting to accompany her home..tats where she gave me a bloody attitude...! wak kau..aku pun geram siak! *sakit hati*..than after we got down from jurong east mrt station..i give her back wat she give me..aku buat perangai dgn dier! aku tak tunggu dier tap card untuk kluar..aku main jalan aje...thn from behind, she said to me 'tak tahu tunggu orang ke per' in a minah tone! than i juz buat bodoh je ah..otw way of sending her home, she ask me..'kenape dgn u'..? than i asnwer back..'u fikir ah u buat aper dgn i, kasih i perangai sial..macam i bastard u je! i tak uat aper2 kat u..u kasih i perangai nie'...! than both of us become quiet..than she told me..'we find a place to sit down and settle things'.
Kiter dah duduk kat void deck than we dicuss...! we dicuss wat happen..! i ask her kenape she giv me one attitude and wanting a break..than ya lah, kiter quarrel! than after some while of quarreling..I GAVE IN! i put down all my EGO and said tis to her...'if u think tis is not the right time 4 us to be together, fine. i respect ur decision! if tis can make u happi..i will giv tis to u! but all i'm asking is tat..can we go on becoming a couple for 1 more week!' i actually said tis to her..i know i memalukan name lelaki tapi..i love her so much tat i dun care! *haiz* on tat day jugak..we sit at the void deck..hugging each other tightly, knowing tat our relationship will come to an end in juz one week! all the while b4 she go home..i played our song 'Love Paradise'..!
so...we become a couple 4 1 week...in tis one week we had left, i took her to the places where we usually go..! the places where we had our first date. the places tat we had fun together and we went to watch a movie 4 the last time as a couple! than on vesak day! last week, monday, we officialy broke up! its was damn painful..*pain*
so ya..last week i officialy become single! WAIT..tis is not the end of the story...got so much more drama!
Last week was hell to me..breaking up wit a girl hu i hav been devoted of for 8 months. not going out wit my other frens, buat bodoh dgn kawan and tak contact pun diorang..tis is how much i sacrifice 4 her. i sacrifice my time..always picking her up from sch and sending her to sch. i sacrifice my money 4 her..i even worked so tat we had money to spend (during december holiday)..so ya, i'm not regretting all i did 4 her..i'm juz saying tat after doing all of tis 4 her..making her all happi, giving her fun, giving her the feeling of comfort...but still losing her..damn sad but lucky got frens in ite to cheer me up! hahax..=) thankz guyz!
but..last week saturday...24th may..! it was suppose to be our 6th month anniversary..(we officialy become steady on 24th november)...and u guyz can guess wat, SHE WENT OUT WIT ANOTHER GUY! her poly god-brother! on the tat night..around 11:10 p.m...she msg me tis, 'happi could be 6th month anniversary'. i was touched but how come, when she is the one hu initialy ask 4 a break..she give me tis type of msg?! pelik kan!!! k itu tak pasal..u shud continue reading...
the next day..when i online msn, i put up my nick all those sad sentences..! she notice it and pm through msn..saying y am i feeling tis way..she ask me not to feel tis way as she could cry at any moment...! tha i called her up...asking her y is she crying? she told me tat she still love me and tat she dun wana c me like tis...than i answwer back..how can i not feel tis way??? i said 'yesteday (saturday) u said it urself, it was our could be 6th month annivesary..n wat did u do'??? 'u went out wit another guy..i dun even want to know wat u two did..maybe u all do stupid stuff, tat i dun know and i dun wana know'...i told her tis! Suprisingly, she didn't wana disagree on it..in my mind i thought to myself, 'did she do stuff wit him'??? so...i got the courage to ask her...did u kiss him???
THE ANSWER WAS YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES SHE KISS HIM!!!!!!!!!!! YES SHE LET HIM HUG HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES SHE DID PASSIONATE KISS WIT HIM (toungue touch tougue)!!!!!!!!!! wak kau...i cried siak..! say watever u want tongkai,frens,family...do u know how much it hurt wen she said tat! its like one knife stabbing through my heart! i was so damn pissed hearing tat...i can't believe i shouted vulgarities..(not to her ah but to myself)...i cry and cry and cry and she also do the same...
I tld her...u said u love me..u said u wana b wit me in the future..u said tat he was only ur god-brother but wat did u did!!!!! u actually do stuff wit him...Juz 5 days we broke up...JUZ AFTER 5 BLODDY DAYS! u went to do stuff wit another guy..! I FEEL BETRAYED...FEEL ANGRY...FEEL lies...FEEL SAD! i told her all tis...! *heart damn pain* i tld her..after so much i gave u...happiness,security,comfort and all the stuff a girl wants! u still did tis to me...! What The Hell!!!! and on our could-be 6th month annivesary..the day i plan to propose to u...the day tat i decide to change myself for the better for u...the day that i bought our RING!!! the day i propose to u..in the romeo n juliet way..! on tis day..Y!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wah...tat was the worst night...i dun know wat to even say...than i say to her lets meets up tmr as i dun wana dicuss tis on the phone...
the next day..i didn't go 4 sch..i put on a shirt tat she kinda bought 4 me..! so i meet her and i took her to the place where we had our first date...! than drama start to begin again..! i ask her...wat they do last saturday..she answer, 'they went to go play pool, go escape theme park and go bugis' and all of tis he treat her..! come on ah guys, sound wieird rite..pls those hu read tis..especially guyz..can u 4 once agree wit me tat the guy confirm have the mind-set of wanting something in return rite???
so...than i ask her, how many time did u two kiss,hug or watever...she ans, not so much and not so little! wak kau..sakit hati! she also said tat...HE EARNED, i say one more time, HE EARNED THE KISSES and HUGZ! SIOL AH! aper nak menjadi...siak! siak siak! *SIGH*
than she tried to change it, he didn't earn it..he stole it from her! ini lagi pelik...its take two hands to clap..! if one hand dun wana clap..there wil confirm be no clap! remember tis! girls...do u agree? can someone u know in A DAY steal ur kisses and hugz..?! only if u give them rite..so it does not counted as stole!
so ya...was there hurting..! i than told her..! how can u..hu said tat u love me..said tat u n him r juz like brother n sis..said tat u wana b wit me in the future...do tis! u said it urself, u wana break up wit me ncoz its not the time rite..but do u really know y we break up??? its bcoz u wanted FREEDOM! u wanting the feeling of being free...not having tis relationship holding u back from doing things...! pls ah..if u say u wana break bcoz its not the time yet...i can agree but after u did tis..do u still think tat is the reason..! who is the one hu change first?!!!!!!!!!!!!! its not tat i will change..u r the one changing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i tld her all tis...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
she than answer me back all crap ah...u all wana know, go ask her urself...! maybe u all think i'm juz telling my part of the story but juz tis once..believe me...tis is wat actually happen...every detailed of it! i may 4get some stuff but all the major things are in here so ya...i telling the god damn truth..
oh ya..i 4get to mention...! after she tell me tis crap she ask me..! whether she still have a chance to b wit me in the future...! i can't believe i actually say tis to her...maybe bcoz i love her so much or wat...! i tld her....Yes! u still hav a chance to b wit me in the future..
*sigh* now dun know wat to do...n it was juz yesterday so..my brain kinda dead rite now..SORI! cannot think of wat to type...! all i know is tat i dun wana b wit her again..i dun wana c her again...i am not at the lost...(but to tell u the truth rite, i think tis is juz a temporary feeling..not meaning it) aiyoyo..now is time tat i realli nid my frens to comfort me!
futhermore..for ur info, u know the guy rite...he have a girlftren! u c lah..! its bcoz of guyz like him...the devoted one r being drag down! *!@#$%%^#@*
here is a concept 4 the girl..i'm gona tell her when i got the chance...
""""Listen...now, u tld me tat u n him r not in a relationship but u two r doing stuff! eventhough he have a gf..he dun mind cheating on his gf...! but..wat if the two of u stead??? can u trust him enough 4 not cheating u...? 4 not going out with another girl other than u...doing stuff wit another girl...! got tis thing called karma..wat goes around comes around! so..can u reali trust him..?""""
does tis seem logic to any one reading??? if not, pls tell me...
so ya..tats the story..i may edit tis as i think got somes part i 4get...but the whole things is here..! thankz 4 reading btw, i shud treat u all 4 reading tis long post...! hahax...
and one more thing...here a phrase i learned from some one...
'true love doesn't come after so many lover..it will suddenly come..u will suddenly feel tat feeling of loved...once u have it, try not to let go...as it may be impossible to get it back'..
so tats all...
tataz..
stranger wit a broken heart..
TongkaiBlue.
bound and broken;
xxx
Sunday, May 25, 2008
wakakakakaka! || 9:12 PM
hahax...korang masih tak tau ke aper, saper update nie??? WOLS!
aniway...sori ah iskandar, aku tahu,dulu kau tanye2 kite untuk update, takde saper2 dgr pun..masih kau update aje. Sori ah bro...! next time kau plan nak main badminton, aku partner dgn kau and kiter belasah dua2 bram dgn nafeez..wakakakaka! tapi kau kene ajak aku gi saner ah..aku tak pernah main badminton dgn korang! hahax..
aniway..its look likes halis is doing fine! great! study hard man...! rooting for u!!! wuhoo...!
kk..tats all
stranger signing off!
tataz...
TongkaiBlue.
bound and broken;
xxx
